hello, my blog-reading friends!
I hope this sunny morning finds you well. I woke up in a relaxed manner… but it all went downhill from there. Here’s why: I made the mistake of reading my HOROSCOPE! Yes, that’s right. I am feeling stressed out right now thanks to a tiny blurb in the Globe and Mail based on how the stars might, very generally, affect my fate.
I am a leo, so here’s what I got today:
LEO (July 24 – Aug. 23):
Sit back, close your eyes and imagine where you would most like to be and what you would most like to be doing by this time next year. Do you have what it takes to make it happen? Yes you do, so start on it now.
(want yours? find it here)
AHRRRRRRRG! What the poor old horoscope writer person doesn’t know is that she just put her finger on a very sensitive spot: the question of WHAT TO DO NEXT.
Now in the second year of my Master’s degree, it’s a question that is starting to come up a lot these days. “So, are you applying for a PhD?” is a question I get a lot. “No? Hmm. So what are you going to do?”
It’s frightening. I have just spent too much time desperately clicking through various PhD programs here and in the U.S in a panicked oh-my-god, should-I-be-doing-a-PhD-if-so-where-and-what-will-I-do-it-in frenzy. Not hugely productive.
Unlike people doing degrees in things that lead to jobs, I am doing a degree in Cultural Studies, which is just a nice way of saying, “you’re interesting. Too bad we have no idea what to do with you.”
It’s interesting, too, to look ahead and realize that at this time next year, I don’t even know where I’ll be living… or really, what I will be doing.
I am resistant to the idea of applying for a PhD just for the heck of it — that seems silly (that said, it’s how I ended up here… so maybe there is something to it?)
Regular blog readers will know that I went through a phase where I was being all at peace with the idea of not knowing.. at just trusting that somehow the universe and I would get it sorted out, and I’d find meaningful work and some kind of path to follow til I figure out what it is that I’m supposed to be doing. Well, let’s be honest: that’s a pretty passive way to live your life, right?
There are opportunities out there, and many of them have fixed deadlines (hello, funding?) — they’re all just out there waiting to be taken advantage of, right?
(what to do, what to do! Anyone else in this situation? I’ll take advice in whatever shape I can get it in these days…)